MY REALITY...

~* Miss You Sweetie...So Much as In *~ (March 06, 2006)

I woke up a little late today.  Prayed, Got up, Freshen up and of course turned on my PC.  I logged on in my YM and received a wonderful blessing from God that drew a big smile on my face. A message from my Sweetie!

"Sweetie! musta ka na po ba?!? sowee ndi me makareply promptly kse daming ginagawa eh. miss na kita! balitaan mo naman po ako!  God bless!!!"

Thank God my sweetie is doing great.

I met this wonderful man over the net years ago.  We had a great chemistry together.  We became real life friends, shared our lives to each other and have kept in touch as often as we can.  Though we are apart, I feel like he is just near, living his life alongside mine.  Ironic right!? I just cannot really explain this setting.  Kahit ako... nahihiwagaan.

His testimony as written below really touched me a lot.

Posted 12/09/2003

At last!!! Kritoni in my friendster!!! hehehe I met KC in the chat b4 we became real life friends. She's cool to get along with...has this sense of maturity and humor in perfect balance. She's quite a dancer at that!!! =) She's one person I'll always remember because of things she does...she's always true to her words and feelings. And she never fails to remember...that's one thing I like most on her!!! Ey!!! I love this feeling...I hope we grow old like this....take care KC!!! =)
I love the feeling as well. *SiGhS*

I have faith that one day we will meet again Sweetie.  I pray that you have a happy and blessed life wherever you go.  Thank you for being a great special friend to me, for keeping in touch and for treating me the same as the first time.  I will always cherish you here in my heart all of my life.  God bless! *muah! muah! muah!* Miss you so much!

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Sweetie (11/11/2006 10:24pm Rashid Park)

No matter how tired I am with all the practices and preparations for the MEC,

No matter how excited and busy I am with my new job,

No matter how occupied I am with all the important matters I need to settle,

No matter how I am surrounded by a lot of people,

Still... there are times where I just get suddenly hit by reality that I believe I try to ignore or most likely set aside.

Last night was one of the times.

Amidst the crowd, the noise, the laughter, I found myself crying whilst feeling tired and stressed with all the activities I am having.

In an instant, I remembered "Sweetie". Without any second thought, I picked up my phone and dialled his number. We were not in communication for more than 6 months now.  He is busy with his life and I am busy with mine.  The time difference between Singapore and Dubai made it even harder for us to be able to be in touch with each other. Nevertheless, I tried to reach him.  And after 3 rings... I heard his sweet sleepy voice on the other line.  In shock, I felt happy.  We just said hi and hello to each other.  Ask how both of us are doing. Then I let him go back to sleep. A minute of talk and it eases away the tiredness and stress.

I felt a little sad and my eyes overflowed with tears.  I realized how I have missed Sweetie all these time and how we never lose this connection that I find very mysterious.

I yearn to have a long deep conversation with you, Sweetie.  I trust that we will see each other again.  If God will allow I might get a chance to visit you in Sing! *crossed fingers*

I appreciate you every time for you never fail my expectations.

Stay the same Sweetie like you always do.  I just love the way you are.

Take Care of yourself.  God Bless *big bear warm hugs*

Missing you...

Your Sweetie  

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I wrote these blogs at Friendster last 2006.  As I read them now I was able to confirm that I still feel the same.  I guess I wrote these from my heart. Reality started hitting me and it brought me to tears.  I never knew I still have this within me or I guess I’m just not minding them all these time. Now, everything is falling into place without me even noticing it, until now.

What’s next?

I am overwhelmed with emotions.

I am decided on what to do.

I have to do these for I believe there is no other way.