I used to write blogs @ friendster from 2005 to early 2007 then their blog crashes so I was not able to continue writing any. Last night I wondered if I can access my old blog in friendster and luckily I was able. As I read, I went back through time and felt everything I felt when i wrote the blogs. I even wondered if I was really the one who wrote them 
Weird right!? hahahhahah!
Weird right!? hahahhahah!
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February 08, 2007
Yes! Lord!
I have a mission...
I am honored...
I am blessed...
I am excited about it...
I desired for it...
tomorrow is the day...
and I trust that JESUS will be with me from start to finish.
AMEN!
February 04, 2007
Forever Blue
Used to like the sound of the rain
And feel your arms around me
Together we go insane,
But I wake up to where I should be
I've longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you'll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever blue
Gonna find some other guy for me
This time it will be just like the wind
Coming at the time it must be
And blowing to where I should be
I've longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you'll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, yeah, I'm afraid
To be forever blue
Don't wanna be alone
I need someone to hold on to
And share my dreams with a love
A love that's always true
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever, woh
And feel your arms around me
Together we go insane,
But I wake up to where I should be
I've longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you'll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever blue
Gonna find some other guy for me
This time it will be just like the wind
Coming at the time it must be
And blowing to where I should be
I've longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you'll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, yeah, I'm afraid
To be forever blue
Don't wanna be alone
I need someone to hold on to
And share my dreams with a love
A love that's always true
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever, woh
February 02, 2007
Jesus is blessing my way!
Something good is going to happen to me this very year, this very day...
Something good is going to happen to me this very year, this very day...
JESUS IS BLESSING MY WAY!
January 24, 2007
Don't get too close...
I don't really know what I really wanna say... but I think the title explains all of it.
I'm not saying it's right or wrong... it's just what hit me this past few days.
Don't ask me why.... I wouldn't answer you anyway.
January 10, 2007
I HearT You!!
I received an unexpected call at exactly 11:44 am from unknown number. Siyempre I hesitated to answer at first bec. I'm at the office saka di ko kilala yung number baka wrong number na naman noh! Pero ewan ko ba... sa sobrang gulat ko...nagbilang ako ng 1.. 2.. 3.. tapos sinagot ko din. Ayun, ang unang tanong sa akin eh "Busy ka ba?" ngorks noh!?! eh di tinanong ko agad.. "sino ito?" aba't inulit ang tanong niya "Busy ka ba!?!" eh di tinanong ko ulit "Sino ito?" medyo tumaas na ang boses ko.. tapos sabi siya ng "Heart, busy ka ba!?!"
Ayun, napangiti ako ng malaki hehehehe! grabeee...Heart remembered me and infairness di siya busy at nakipagkwentuhan ng konti...hehehe! Siyempre I made time for someone who I rarely talk to. "Haayyyy, Heart grabee...overwhelmed ako as in!!High pa rin ako hanggang ngayon.. hahahaha! I appreciate it a lot po! MWaaaaaaaaah! Heart kew... you take care of yourself okay!? wag magpahamog at ang bumbunan mo po...hehehehe! Salamat sa tawag mo...Mwaaaaaaaaah! God Bless po! I Heart You :D weeeeeeh!!!?!!?"
Ayun, napangiti ako ng malaki hehehehe! grabeee...Heart remembered me and infairness di siya busy at nakipagkwentuhan ng konti...hehehe! Siyempre I made time for someone who I rarely talk to. "Haayyyy, Heart grabee...overwhelmed ako as in!!High pa rin ako hanggang ngayon.. hahahaha! I appreciate it a lot po! MWaaaaaaaaah! Heart kew... you take care of yourself okay!? wag magpahamog at ang bumbunan mo po...hehehehe! Salamat sa tawag mo...Mwaaaaaaaaah! God Bless po! I Heart You :D weeeeeeh!!!?!!?"
December 09, 2006
Patient Heart
Dear Lord, please grant me a patient heart. Amen.
December 03, 2006
Gloomy Rainy Sunday
I had a truthful talk with a friend and I really cried my heart out. It made my happy rainy day a gloomy one. But the good thing about it is that we were able to resolve issues that has been long held back.
Thinking about it now... it makes me laugh... hehehehehe! My friend really took a lot of time in taking deep breaths and pulling the courage from down under. And I feel funny knowing that I cried. Grrrr..... ahikhikhik! Well, It was like a telenovela.... but the difference is... It was in real life and has a happy ending.... I think!
Friend... remind lang kita....
“Friendship is not a one way street.”
“If you want me to be your friend, you should learn how to keep me.”
I'm hoping that this friendship will grow fruitfully and may it help both of us to be great Christians.
Let's pray for it.
November 25, 2006
YES LORD!
I have spent what has now been two months of dance practices in preparation for the MEC. There were a lot of pressure, stress and harassments. I even slightly dislocated my right shoulder because of our dance routine. But even so, nothing has stopped me from doing what I needed to do.
The great passion that I have within me is inexplicable. Giving up on what I was asked to do never crossed my mind amidst my physical and emotional exhaustion. Why? Because I believe that there is a significant purpose to what I am dedicatedly working for.
17th of November 2006 came, it was the day for SFC United Pre-Conference. I didn’t really know what to expect but I was excited.
I woke up and prepared early. When I got to Jebel Ali St. Claire’s hall I felt that this will be His event. Brothers and sisters from different emirates arrived with all smiles. Everybody’s excitement was undeniable. I thought they too must have experienced pressure, stress, and harassments just like we did while preparing to take part in this event.
I got all the more thrilled as the program and competition began. Watching my brothers and sisters perform was surprisingly amazing. I was affirmed that He has bestowed His children with beautiful and unique talents.
When it was our group’s turn to dance, I got a little edgy. Well, who wouldn’t!? And yet, I was more eager to dance for Him. I observed our brothers and sisters who were watching us dance. They have different expressions on their faces. I reached within my heart and spoke to the Lord of all talents… “I know my Lord that you let me dance for you and I pray that I have served your purpose.” Right there and then, I felt so loved and blessed.
Nothing compares to the feeling of completeness when I make my God happy and when I do His work. Every event is a place and occasion to receive His graces and blessings. I have received it during this pre-conference and I am looking forward to being abundantly blessed on November 30 and December 1, 2006 during the SFC Unlimited 8thMiddle East Conference at Margham Desert, UAE.
Do not let harassments cripple you.
Work hard, practice, and prepare well.
Seize the opportunity to serve whole heartedly.
Pray, pray more, and pray some more.
Radiate God’s love in everything you do.
Trust that God will equip you.
Never doubt that God’s work will always be victorious.
Desire to always be more faithful.
YES LORD! I will meet you at the MEC to praise and glorify your name together with my brothers and sisters from all over the Middle East. I will be one with them in witnessing Your unlimited and infinite love… and I will let the way I live my life tell the world about it.
November 12, 2006
Sweetie (11/11/2006 10:24pm Rashid Park)
No matter how tired I am with all the practices and preparations for the MEC,
No matter how excited and busy I am with my new job,
No matter how occupied I am with all the important matters I need to settle,
No matter how I am surrounded by a lot of people,
Still... there are times where I just get suddenly hit by reality that I believe I try to ignore or most likely set aside.
No matter how excited and busy I am with my new job,
No matter how occupied I am with all the important matters I need to settle,
No matter how I am surrounded by a lot of people,
Still... there are times where I just get suddenly hit by reality that I believe I try to ignore or most likely set aside.
Last night was one of the times.
Amidst the crowd, the noise, the laughters, I found myself crying whilst feeling tired and stressed with all the activities I am having.
In an instant, I remembered "Sweetie". Without any second thought, I picked up my phone and dialed his number. We were not in communication for more than 6 months now. He is busy with his life and I am busy with mine. The time difference between Singapore and Dubai made it even harder for us to be able to be in touch with each other. Nevertheless, I tried to reach him. And after 3 rings... I heard his sweet sleepy voice on the other line. In shock, I felt happy. We just said Hi and hello to each other. Ask how both of us are doing. Then I let him go back to sleep. A minute of talk and it eases away the tiredness and stress.
I felt a little sad and my eyes overflowed with tears. I realized how I have missed Sweetie all these time and how we never lose this connection that I find very mysterious.
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I yearn to have a long deep conversation with you Sweetie. I trust that we will see each other again. If God will allow I might get a chance to visit you in Sing! *crossed fingers*
I appreciate you every time for you never fail my expectations.
Stay the same Sweetie like you always do. I just love the way you are.
Take Care of yourself. God Bless *big bear warm hugs*
Missing you...
Your Sweetie
November 05, 2006
SURPRISE FROM GOD
Thursday, November 2, 2006
I drove to Rashid Park from work. While doing so... I am deeply thinking of something. Great concern that is. Not heavy but really something to think about.
After I got down from the car and bid goodbye to one of my kindest friend. One side of me is thinking of picking up the phone and calling someone. But the other side is thinking of not to. So... I decided not to. As I was walking towards the park, I was wondering what if I called!? What could have been?! Until I crossed the street and reached the park. And guess what!? that someone is already in the park. Coincidence? Destined? Well, I don't know how to call it but it really caught me by surprise. I actually smiled and looked up into the heavens and told God "Ikaw talaga Lord!"
The unplanned meeting was fruitful. Talked about a lot of things. I missed having such meaningful serious conversation.
I needed it. And God gave it to me.
Lord, you are the only one who can surprise me. You are the only one who knows my needs and meet it. You are the only one who can make my heart smile and overflow with love. You are the only one who can understand me without me saying anything. You are the only who can lift me up when I am down, carry me when I can't walk, embrace me when I am cold, comfort me when I am lonely and love me when I feel unloved.
Thank you for patiently loving me, understanding me and embracing me. Thank you for bringing people into my life. Through them I can see and feel you.
I humbly surrender everything to you and I whole-heartedly appreciate all that you have blessed me with. I can't ask for anything more.
I trust and believe that you will continue to use me to inspire your people and radiate your love to them.
All my praise I will give to you till the end of my days.
I drove to Rashid Park from work. While doing so... I am deeply thinking of something. Great concern that is. Not heavy but really something to think about.
After I got down from the car and bid goodbye to one of my kindest friend. One side of me is thinking of picking up the phone and calling someone. But the other side is thinking of not to. So... I decided not to. As I was walking towards the park, I was wondering what if I called!? What could have been?! Until I crossed the street and reached the park. And guess what!? that someone is already in the park. Coincidence? Destined? Well, I don't know how to call it but it really caught me by surprise. I actually smiled and looked up into the heavens and told God "Ikaw talaga Lord!"
The unplanned meeting was fruitful. Talked about a lot of things. I missed having such meaningful serious conversation.
I needed it. And God gave it to me.
Lord, you are the only one who can surprise me. You are the only one who knows my needs and meet it. You are the only one who can make my heart smile and overflow with love. You are the only one who can understand me without me saying anything. You are the only who can lift me up when I am down, carry me when I can't walk, embrace me when I am cold, comfort me when I am lonely and love me when I feel unloved.
Thank you for patiently loving me, understanding me and embracing me. Thank you for bringing people into my life. Through them I can see and feel you.
I humbly surrender everything to you and I whole-heartedly appreciate all that you have blessed me with. I can't ask for anything more.
I trust and believe that you will continue to use me to inspire your people and radiate your love to them.
All my praise I will give to you till the end of my days.
November 05, 2006
Sighs..
Our office is so quiet. Almost all employees are out on a training. Hmmmm..... silence fills the room. All I can hear is the sound I'm making using this unusual keyboard.
The sun is shining so high and its glares are hitting my monitor. I can't see anything. I have to squint my eyes to see clearly. Let me pull down this blinds to make life easier... hehehehe! There you go...
My mind is having thoughts.... again! Silence triggers my mind to think most of the time. And this is one of those times.
Question!
How could an expressive person not express herself? What would an expressive person do if she is forced not to express herself? What does an expressive person feels if she is suppressed to express herself?
For sure... It's all messed up.
Sighs! Sighs... Sighs!
Nothing left to do but Sighs.
Pathetic right!?!
Not really! At least there is one thing left to do to express herself.
The sun is shining so high and its glares are hitting my monitor. I can't see anything. I have to squint my eyes to see clearly. Let me pull down this blinds to make life easier... hehehehe! There you go...
My mind is having thoughts.... again! Silence triggers my mind to think most of the time. And this is one of those times.
Question!
How could an expressive person not express herself? What would an expressive person do if she is forced not to express herself? What does an expressive person feels if she is suppressed to express herself?
For sure... It's all messed up.
Sighs! Sighs... Sighs!
Nothing left to do but Sighs.
Pathetic right!?!
Not really! At least there is one thing left to do to express herself.
November 04, 2006
Mind-Bugling Thoughts (November 2, 2006)
10:22 am
At work! Drinking hot milk! A lot of things to be done. Hayyy, busy ako ah! Grabee!
10:24 am
Ma-Hog pa rin sa labas... hehehe!
Ang tagal magload ng tools sa web...kainip kaya!
11:42am
Sakit ng mata ko kakatingin dito sa napakalaking monitor ng SUN. I need to rest my eyes...close...open...close...open..close...open...close...ZZzzZZZzzzzz....hehehehe! ... OPEN!
12:01 pm
Sarap ng hot chocolate hmmmm....nakakaalis ng sakit ng mata... hehehe!
12:24 pm
Ayan kakaiba na naman nararamdaman ko... ang gulo gulo...nakakainis na... Bakit kse ganito eh... haaaayyy... naku!
12:26 pm
One of the things God is training me to do is to be patient. Patience is a virtue ika nga! God naman eh...grabee naman eh! Love you po! I trust it's worth the wait.
2:09 pm
I had lunch. Went to refresh. Looked at the mirror. Why are my eyes sad? Why? It's not smiling. Sad.
5:05 pm
Working here at SUN is exciting. I get to be email buddies with my colleagues that I have not met. Parang chat mates. Namiss ko tuloy ang chat days ko. Bwaahahahahaa!
October 29, 2006
Messed up
Feelings are so messed up.
Trying to figure it out.
Days after days.
Still trying to figure it out.
But wait a minute...
I shouldn't be the one figuring this out!
September 25, 2006
Expectations
When I get down, I wanted to do things to help myself to be happy. But most of the time I end up getting hurt, sad and more down when I do so. Why? Because I expect a lot from others where in fact I shouldn’t.
Expectations do bring me down. I have proven it so many times. But I guess I never learn.
September 22, 2006
Breakdown
22nd September 2006 at about half past 11 pm…
I BROKE DOWN.
September 18, 2006
Serene Heart
My heart gets mystified by a lot of things that even the mind can’t comprehend. Last night I got caught up, I don’t know what to do. I kept on trying to let myself out and be true to whatever my heart feels. But no matter how I try to identify, my emotion was left at the middle-of-the-road. There is no where to go.
I am not on denial.
There is nothing to deny.
As I was sitting there on the swing at Rashid Park, I looked up into the sky. Seeing the stars bring light into my heart as in brings light into dark sky. I sang Heaven and Lord Jesus We Enthrone as what my heart wanted to sing. I spoke to my Saviour in the silence of my heart, not questioning but delightful of His blessings.
My restless heart was bothered with mortal feelings that make me apathetic. And believe it or not, I felt I needed to run for it to allow my heart to pump. I ran and ran while squeezing the stress ball at hand. I ran until my heart started to sense.
When my heart starts to get restless…it only means that my heart is forgetting what it desires… I have to constantly remind my heart… to always let Christ in and let Him live in my heart.
There is only one truth that always will prevail…
God is the Strength of My Heart!
My Heart is in serenity with Christ Alone.
September 14, 2006
Loving Myself...
Most often than not, I always get advice from my friends to love myself first in order for me to love others. It’s like they are telling me that if you don’t have love you can’t give love. For you can’t give what you don’t have. Well, they have a point.
And whenever I do receive this advice, I pause and think.
Hmmm… don’t I love myself!?
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I guess I do.
For me loving myself is loving others first. Where do I get the love that I give!? I source it from the “THE LOVE”, Our Creator, Our Father, Our Friend, Our Savior …Our God.
Therefore, I am loved. I have love. I can give love.
It does make sense, don’t you think?
September 09, 2006
Answered Prayer
God answered our prayer and for now it's a NO! I trust in God's plan and although it hurts much and brought tears in my heart I thank Him for being kind and considerate father to me. He does know what's best for me.
Friends thank you for your prayers and support. I Love You ALL!.
Truly...God blesses those who believe and have faith in Him.
P.S.
He will remain my MOG. *smiles*
August 31, 2006
Sitting on the Fence
Most of the time I get bewildered or I’m unsure for reasons I know but just can’t stride forward and decide on it.
Things and circumstances in life can really get complicated and most of the time it all end up too much for me to handle.
I can have something now but not deciding to have it. But knowing that someone else can have it makes me jealous. And to save me from downbeat feelings… am thinking of not having it at all. Confusing?!?!? … Tell me about it!
I’m in no doubt of one thing now… I am sitting on the fence.
August 30, 2006
When All Fails...
This morning my ever dearest Mommy Cherry woke me up. All worried, she was trying to find means to help me and Mina with our concerns. While me, listening to her got hit with my own frustrations. I felt Mommy Cherry’s love.
After our conversation I sat up on my bed. And thought of … When All Fails…
I felt unstable. I’m losing it. I had to do something.
I started to SMS my friends and asked them to help me complete my sentence.
When All Fails…
…God shows His best. – Guz
…have faith in the Lord. Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding. God loves you mommy K! – fafa Rodel
Failures are great opportunity for getting up and moving on. So pray, get up and move on. In God’s time sabay sabay din yang mawawala. Most of us will go through that stage. Just stay strong and prayerful. – KaClose Gabz
…remember that God will always be there to help us overcome our failures and guide us to build a new tomorrow. – Lala Gurl
…God lifts. When all fails…so wat!? You’re still standing. You have God. He won’t fail you. – Gracie
…God’s love becomes more deeper. – Kuya Melo
…and everything is down, just check out maybe we are just looking at the wrong window. Keep a distance for awhile and watch the big picture. For sure HE lightened a candle somewhere. – Kuya Vince
...that’s the time that GOD shows His power. KC yun po ung time na di na tayo dumedepende sa sarili natin kung hindi sa kanya na lang lahat what HE is just requesting is total surrender to HIM never ever doubt. Godbless you dear continue praying and ask for HIS guidance coz I know HE will not abandon you, this time I know HE is the one carrying you (remember footprints in the Sand). – TiTin Apil
… turn to God. – Thea
…keep on praying until something happens. – Guchi
…smile still and always remember, God is good He will always lift you up, He will brighten your day, take good care of all your concerns... and when all fails, always remember... am just here for you. – Momi I
…Let go and Let God. Count your blessings. – Je Babas
…ask for God's help. – Pam
…you can do nothing but to surrender it all to Him and you just hang on to your faith, coz in the midst of all these. God is with you. Me too! Cheer up! – Hyper Dhenzio
Thank you to all my friends. You have been God’s angels and messengers to me today. My eyes were overflowing with tears and my heart was overwhelmed with love as you affirm me with God’s love and blessings.
When all fails…seek for God’s presence and help yourself to be reminded of what you always trust and believe in. That God will never ever forsake you and that He is always with you holding your hand, embracing you, carrying you through your failures, frustrations and misery in life. - In Christ, KC
August 29, 2006
Chinky Winky Eyes
My super duper kulit friend keeps on telling me that my eyes is beautiful. I got intriqued for its the first appreciation on my eyes ever. I don't see it...so i took the liberty of taking its picture. Hmm...I still don't see it.
August 29, 2006
Astonished...
I had time... so i read my previous blogs!
My gosh... did i write all these!? I really can't believe that i am capable to write. Am not bragging or anything... I am just astonished with my own writing. It's like am reading someone else's blog. Bat' ganon!?
My gosh... did i write all these!? I really can't believe that i am capable to write. Am not bragging or anything... I am just astonished with my own writing. It's like am reading someone else's blog. Bat' ganon!?
August 28, 2006
Communication is the Key to Love
As I sit here alone in the room, I remembered a phrase from the TLC album “Communication is the Key to Love”, I agree.
Last night I was able to talk to a very honest and selfless person.
Never have I had a chance to be so honest with all the thoughts and feelings I’m having inside. Never have I had a chance to share my worries, fears, doubts and tribulations. Never have I had been asked to pour out my heart and to be listened to. This person gave me the chance to be honest, to share and to pour out my heart…and this person listened.
I can’t believe that communicating with your heart and not just mind to someone can ever be so relieving. I was relieved. I was overwhelmed. I was at peace. I was loved.
No amount of gratitude can ever match this person’s bigheartedness.
August 25, 2006
I'm Tired Of Being Alone
As I was driving home alone this afternoon, a line in the song I’m listening to caught my attention. “I’m tired of being alone”. Could I be?! This draws me to listen to the song over and over and over. The whole song is so applicable to me as well as the adlib of the singer that goes "This is a song about, talking to the person that you haven't met yet. Maybe they're rolling around the hay with someone else but they'll not as good as you'll be. There's just got a way to turn. She's out there, He's out there, that just learning what the contrast you against." very uplifting, at least for me. *smiles*
Everyone is getting caught in the complicated world of love. Even I was not able to save myself from getting caught. My friends keep on telling me that the right one for me will come in God’s perfect time. I believe and have faith on that. But sometimes I still end up thinking why this thing called love is so complicated. Why I always end up liking someone who likes someone else and letting the one I love go to be happy with that someone. I actually have answers to these questions. But I could be stubborn at times and still ask anyways. *laughs*
I had to be honest to myself so I am declaring it in writing. Here goes…
I am discerning for a very special someone. He is discerning for someone else. I’m hurt. Crashed. In tears. Losing hope somehow. Sadness is written all over my face.
I am discerning for a very special someone. He is discerning for someone else. I’m hurt. Crashed. In tears. Losing hope somehow. Sadness is written all over my face.
But amidst all these, I’m remaining faithful to God’s promise and extend my patience in waiting. I will continue to be persistent in praying and hoping that God will bless me with my request.
I am trying to stay positive.
As like what my friend said, “Matatauhan din yan!”
As like what my cousin said, “He has taken so many paths but all roads will lead back to you”.
As like what my prayer partners said, “Pag-pray lang natin lagi”.
As like what my dance friend said, “Take Care of your heart, Masarap magmahal, walang kapantay”.
As like what my little sister said, “You deserve to be happy ate KC!”
As like what I said, “I believe I love Him, already!”
So, with the entire intro… I just wanted to share this song… actually! *laughs out loud*
I am trying to stay positive.
As like what my friend said, “Matatauhan din yan!”
As like what my cousin said, “He has taken so many paths but all roads will lead back to you”.
As like what my prayer partners said, “Pag-pray lang natin lagi”.
As like what my dance friend said, “Take Care of your heart, Masarap magmahal, walang kapantay”.
As like what my little sister said, “You deserve to be happy ate KC!”
As like what I said, “I believe I love Him, already!”
So, with the entire intro… I just wanted to share this song… actually! *laughs out loud*
Love Song for No One
John Mayer
John Mayer
Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
(get here)
Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
just staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
Oh no way
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here, ohh
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me
Ohhh, I know you'll be so good...
for me...
for me...
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
(get here)
Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
just staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
Oh no way
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here, ohh
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me
Ohhh, I know you'll be so good...
for me...
for me...
August 23, 2006
My Greatest and Perfect Lover...
Most individuals have searched the whole world looking for the greatest and perfect lover not knowing that He is with us all the while.
Eversince i have heard this song it has become the song of my heart toMy Greatest and Perfect Lover... Jesus Christ.
Jesus, Lover of My Soul
Jesus, lover of my soul
Jesus, I will never let You go
You've taken me from the miry clay
Set my feet upon the rock and now I know
I love You, I need You
Though my world may fall, I'll never let You go
My Savior, my closest friend
I will worship You until the very end
Jesus, lover of my soul
Jesus, I will never let you go
You've taken me from the miry clay
Set my feet upon the rock and now I know
I love You, I need You
Though my world may fall, I'll never let You go
My Savior, my closest friend
I will worship You until the very end
I love You, I need You
Though my world may fall, I'll never let You go
My Savior, my closest friend
I will worship You until the very end
Worship You, my Lord, until the very end
Jesus, I will never let You go
You've taken me from the miry clay
Set my feet upon the rock and now I know
I love You, I need You
Though my world may fall, I'll never let You go
My Savior, my closest friend
I will worship You until the very end
Jesus, lover of my soul
Jesus, I will never let you go
You've taken me from the miry clay
Set my feet upon the rock and now I know
I love You, I need You
Though my world may fall, I'll never let You go
My Savior, my closest friend
I will worship You until the very end
I love You, I need You
Though my world may fall, I'll never let You go
My Savior, my closest friend
I will worship You until the very end
Worship You, my Lord, until the very end
August 09, 2006
In a Rush continued (July 31, 2006)
A sudden rush of thoughts about you came to me while cooking dinner. Very odd for me! To think you don’t have anything to do with what I am cooking. Hahaha!
I have been busy with a lot of things lately. A lot of thinking and a lot of activities, honestly there was no space left in my brain to think about you… (Exaggerating) …but every night as I pray to God I never fail to pray for you. I keep wondering why?!
I don’t know you much for we rarely talk, seldom text and occasionally see each other. But you inspire me for just being you. Your exceptional smile brings gladness to my heart. Your sweet little eyes that reflect your goodness amazes me. Your angelic voice that keeps ringing to my ear makes me shiver. Your acts of kindness sweep me off my feet.
This feeling grows deeper each day for reasons that is not so clear to me. I trust in God’s promise and I know sooner the sky will clear up for me.
July 04, 2006
A PRAYER OF CONFIDENCE
Protect me, O God; I trust in you for safety.
I say to the LORD, "You are my Lord; all the good things I have come from you."
How excellent are the LORD's faithful people! My greatest pleasure is to be with them.
Those who rush to other gods bring many troubles on themselves.
I will not take part in their sacrifices; I will not worship their gods.
You, LORD, are all I have, and you give me all I need; my future is in your hands.
How wonderful are your gifts to me; how good they are!
I praise the LORD, because he guides me, and in the night my conscience warns me.
I am always aware of the LORD's presence; he is near, and nothing can shake me.
And so I am thankful and glad, and I feel completely secure,
because you protect me from the power of death.
I have served you faithfully, and you will not abandoned me to the world of the dead.
You will show me the path that leads to life;
your presence fills me with joy and brings me pleasure forever.
Psalms 16:1-11
I say to the LORD, "You are my Lord; all the good things I have come from you."
How excellent are the LORD's faithful people! My greatest pleasure is to be with them.
Those who rush to other gods bring many troubles on themselves.
I will not take part in their sacrifices; I will not worship their gods.
You, LORD, are all I have, and you give me all I need; my future is in your hands.
How wonderful are your gifts to me; how good they are!
I praise the LORD, because he guides me, and in the night my conscience warns me.
I am always aware of the LORD's presence; he is near, and nothing can shake me.
And so I am thankful and glad, and I feel completely secure,
because you protect me from the power of death.
I have served you faithfully, and you will not abandoned me to the world of the dead.
You will show me the path that leads to life;
your presence fills me with joy and brings me pleasure forever.
Psalms 16:1-11
A PRAYER FOR HELP
How much longer will you forget me, LORD? Forever?
How much longer will you hide yourself from me?
How long must I endure trouble?
How long will sorrow fill my heart day and night?
How long will my enemis triumph over me?
Look at me, O LORD my God, and answer me.
Restore my strength; don't let me die.
Don't let my enemies say, "We have defeated him."
Don't let them gloat over my downfall.
I rely on your constant love; I will be glad, because you will rescue me.
I will sing to you, O LORD, because you have been good to me.
Psalms 13:1-6
How much longer will you hide yourself from me?
How long must I endure trouble?
How long will sorrow fill my heart day and night?
How long will my enemis triumph over me?
Look at me, O LORD my God, and answer me.
Restore my strength; don't let me die.
Don't let my enemies say, "We have defeated him."
Don't let them gloat over my downfall.
I rely on your constant love; I will be glad, because you will rescue me.
I will sing to you, O LORD, because you have been good to me.
Psalms 13:1-6
July 01, 2006
I know... because I have.
Have you ever felt lonely in a crowded place?
Have you ever felt betrayed by a friend?
Have you ever felt humiliated?
Have you ever felt degraded by the person you least expect?
Have you ever felt neglected by the one you love?
Have you ever felt disgraced?
Have you ever felt abandoned by your loved ones?
Have you ever felt weak?
Have you ever felt violated?
Have you ever felt judged by the people you trust?
Have you ever felt all this negative feelings, and you thought you’re going to explode?
In this worldly and earthly place you will feel all this unpleasant feeling. I know… because I have.
But there is one place where all of this does not exist.
A place where you will be overwhelmed with love, joy, trust, appreciation, grace, strength, respect, peace and all the pleasant feelings a holy heart expect…
A place within our reach…
A place waiting for us…
A place full of warmth…
A place where nothing else matters but His love…
A place where my soul rightfully belongs… IN GOD’S EMBRACE.
You too rightfully belong to this place. Just have trust and have faith and He will embrace you. I know… because I have.
June 27, 2006
"Here Without You"
As usual am still up and can’t sleep. I am waiting for four in the morning to pick up my dear cuz at the Dubai Airport from Manila. So, I am keeping myself busy by watching Season 5 of Smallville which is getting really cool and am downloading mp3s from love songs to alternative. And while doing so, I stumbled across a song by 3 Doors Down, “Here without You”. Listening to it made me feel sad and now I’m teary-eyed. (Deep Sighs)
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all these miles that separate
Disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life was overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight its only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight its only you and me
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all these miles that separate
Disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life was overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight its only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight its only you and me
You?! Baby!? I really don’t have someone I can call my own. I never had one. I have liked. I have loved. Period. Literally… Period. I always end up liking someone who likes someone else and leaving me loving… hurting… crying… leaving me just dreaming. Ironic right!? Is that fate or what? I have the rest of my life to figure out the answer.
I am happy for those people who have found someone who they can live the rest of their lives with. You are the lucky ones. Cherish and take care of your someone and your relationship. Pray for it for it’s not available over the counter. Trust me on this one.
And for the rest of us, who is still praying for God’s Gift… just keep on praying. God is preparing the special package. You just be patient. Who knows? Maybe that gift is the next person you bump into on your way to the office. You’ll never know.
Who could be mine? I guess I’ll never know either until God’s perfect time.
Hayyyyyyy… Lord, please don’t take too much time. Love you po! Amen.
June 25, 2006
Keep the Faith...
God really knows when and where to remind his children that He is always with us. He is such a loving Father that He never let His children worry and lose hope.
I heard mass yesterday together with my mom and sister. It was a very timely and appropriate for all of us. We went to hear mass with one same petition and God answered our prayers and He assured us that He will never ever forsake my family especially now during trials and tribulations. I claim victory over these negative circumstances happening to my family now. For My God is greater than anything.
My Relationship with the Father is my source of strength and hope. My faith in Him keeps me moving but at the same time keeps me still in times where I think there is no more solution or way. In His shoulder I cry and He comforts me. In Him this troubled heart of mine find peace.
God never fails those who stand by Him and trust Him in everything.
Just Keep the Faith… nothing will ever make you fall or stumble.
June 25, 2006
Fallin'
ooh... yeah..
our litle conversation
are turning into little sweet sensation
and they're only getting sweeter everytime
our friendly get togethers
are turning into visions of forever
if i just believe this foolish heart of mine
i can't pretend
that i'm just a friend
'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
chorus:
i think i'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
and i don't, i don't know what to do
i'm afraid you'd turn away
but i'll say it anyway
coda:
i think i'm fallin... for you
i'm fallin' for you...
whenever we're together
wishing that goodbyes would turn to never
'cause with you is where i'll always wanna be
whenever i'm beside you
all i really wanna do is hold you
no one else but you has meant this much to me
i cant pretend
that i'm just a friend
'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
repeat chorus 2x
coda 2:
i think i'm fallin'... for you
i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin', i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin', i'm fallin for you
and i don't know what to do, yeah
fallin', i'm fallin' for you
our litle conversation
are turning into little sweet sensation
and they're only getting sweeter everytime
our friendly get togethers
are turning into visions of forever
if i just believe this foolish heart of mine
i can't pretend
that i'm just a friend
'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
chorus:
i think i'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
and i don't, i don't know what to do
i'm afraid you'd turn away
but i'll say it anyway
coda:
i think i'm fallin... for you
i'm fallin' for you...
whenever we're together
wishing that goodbyes would turn to never
'cause with you is where i'll always wanna be
whenever i'm beside you
all i really wanna do is hold you
no one else but you has meant this much to me
i cant pretend
that i'm just a friend
'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
repeat chorus 2x
coda 2:
i think i'm fallin'... for you
i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin', i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin', i'm fallin for you
and i don't know what to do, yeah
fallin', i'm fallin' for you
June 19, 2006
In a Rush...
It's 0115 in the morning and still I am wide awake. I can’t sleep because am still tired from the tennis game I had with my dear friends although we really had a short game. “Bitin as in! Waaaaaahhhh…di bale may next Monday pa naman. Hehehe!”
So, what else can I do in this time of the morning... but to write a blog about stuffs am having and somehow keeping to myself.
This time I want to think aloud…and take the risk. Here goes…
Well, lately am having some feelings for someone and the catch is I am torn in comprehending whether I am just fond of him or I am beginning to like him already. Hmmm… (Still thinking!)
Honestly, these feelings came over me in a rush. I believe I had a little of it for him way back but I was not able to acknowledge it until now. I can’t blame myself right!? He is so likeable… what can I do!? But the thing is… should I let this feeling continue and grow or should I stop having it at the earliest where I can still save myself from possible heartaches? (Sighs) Part of me says “STOP” but the rest says “LET IT BE”.
Knowing myself, I am a woman who loves to the fullest and accepts all the heartaches that goes with it. For me, it’s the risk I take. I don’t care about the heartaches as long as I loved with all my heart and unconditionally. But I never thought that one day I will somehow get tired of getting hurt and along with it… me… doubting if I could ever love again to the fullest not afraid of getting heartaches. I don’t like the doubting… the hesitation… to like or even love someone and I am trying to really fight these unwanted feelings. (Deep breaths)
I have shared these to probably a lot of my friends already and I am a little nervous that it might spread to the whole world but nevertheless I trust my friends that they will keep this little secret of mine. And for those friends of mine who does not know this secret… Please don’t take it against me! Please Please Please … it’s just so delicate for me to share it to everyone. I know you guys will understand. (Red Face)
I just want to ask for prayers for enlightenment and discernment about this matter. To tell the truth, I have not prayed for it yet. I am scared. It’s a big deal for me. Don’t know why. (Big Sighs)
Thanks a lot to my friends who shares my joys, and “kiligs”. I appreciate all the words of encouragements and support. And I am still welcoming lots of these. (Comments for this blog are so needed).
I Trust in God that He will lead me into the light for I am a faithful one.
June 18, 2006
Closer I Get To You
The closer I get to you, the more you make me see
By giving me all you've got (Tell me more)
Oooh yeah your love has captured me. yeah.
Over and Over again,
I've tried to tell myself that we could never be more than friends
And all the while inside I knew it was real (oooh)
The way you make me feel
Hey (oh oh oh yeah)Heeeey (and ohhhh)oh oh ohhhhh
Lying here next to you, oh ho time just seems to fly
yeah needing you more and more (more and more)
Let's give love a try (lets give love a try)
I wanna try love
Sweeter and sweeter love grows
And heaven's there for those
Who fool the tricks of time
With hearts in love will find
True love (oohhh)
In a special way (oohhhh) way
The closer I get
closer I get
To you baby
The more you make me see
more you make me see
By giving me what you've got
oooh yeah
Your love
captured me
Ohhh Over and Over again
I've tried to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
When all the while inside
I knew this was real (got to be real) got to be real
The way you make me feel (you know, you know you know)
My baby, my baby, my baby, my love whooo
yeah (yeah yeah) yeah (yeah yeah)
Come a little closer so that we can see into the eyes of love
(I wanna see into the eyes of love come closer)
Just a little a closer let me speak to you
I wanna softly tell you something
(Here I am, heres my love, I just want you to come closer)
Come a little closer, let me whisper in your ear 'cause I wanna tell you something
(I wanna whisper in your ear, so soft, so come closer and)
Move on in real close so we can celebrate the way we feel about each other’s lovin'
(Wanna tell you words, words of love, words that make you wanna)
By giving me all you've got (Tell me more)
Oooh yeah your love has captured me. yeah.
Over and Over again,
I've tried to tell myself that we could never be more than friends
And all the while inside I knew it was real (oooh)
The way you make me feel
Hey (oh oh oh yeah)Heeeey (and ohhhh)oh oh ohhhhh
Lying here next to you, oh ho time just seems to fly
yeah needing you more and more (more and more)
Let's give love a try (lets give love a try)
I wanna try love
Sweeter and sweeter love grows
And heaven's there for those
Who fool the tricks of time
With hearts in love will find
True love (oohhh)
In a special way (oohhhh) way
The closer I get
closer I get
To you baby
The more you make me see
more you make me see
By giving me what you've got
oooh yeah
Your love
captured me
Ohhh Over and Over again
I've tried to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
When all the while inside
I knew this was real (got to be real) got to be real
The way you make me feel (you know, you know you know)
My baby, my baby, my baby, my love whooo
yeah (yeah yeah) yeah (yeah yeah)
Come a little closer so that we can see into the eyes of love
(I wanna see into the eyes of love come closer)
Just a little a closer let me speak to you
I wanna softly tell you something
(Here I am, heres my love, I just want you to come closer)
Come a little closer, let me whisper in your ear 'cause I wanna tell you something
(I wanna whisper in your ear, so soft, so come closer and)
Move on in real close so we can celebrate the way we feel about each other’s lovin'
(Wanna tell you words, words of love, words that make you wanna)
June 02, 2006
The Need
I woke up late today. I got up had lunch and felt a little strange. I had a smooth sailing week but I still feel that something is lacking. I felt that I need to refuel myself. I needed to attend mass.
So, in all the tasks and service in front of me... I decided to hear mass. And to my surprise it was the Feast of the Pentecost “The pouring of the Holy Spirit upon the Apostles”. I was overwhelmed with joy. I found that something that is lacking.
As a servant of God, I am confident that He always provides me with all the resources that I need in all the responsibility and task that He entrusts to me.
As a servant of God, I am confident that He always provides me with all the resources that I need in all the responsibility and task that He entrusts to me.
As His daughter, No matter how blessed I am there is always times that I am longing to be filled with His love, His grace and His Holy Spirit.
I believe that this mass was really intended for me. God wanted to bless me once again with His Holy Spirit to prepare me with all the tasks He will entrust to me once again. And with all these, I thank Him.
The Sequence
Holy Spirit, Lord of Light,
From the clear celestial height,
Thy pure beaming radiance give,
Come, thou Father of the poor,
Come with treasures which endure;
Come, thou light of all that live!
Thou, of all consolers’ best,
Thou, the soul’s delightful guest
Dost refreshing peace bestow;
Thou in toil art comfort sweet;
Pleasant coolness in the heat;
Solace in the midst of woe.
Light immortal, light divine,
Visit thou these hearts of thine,
And our inmost being fill,
If thou take thy grace away,
Nothing pure in man will stay;
All his good is turned to ill.
Heal our wounds, our strength renew;
On our dryness pour thy dew;
Wash the stains of guilt away
Bend the stubborn heart and will;
Melt the frozen, warm the chill;
Guide the steps that go astray,
Thou, on us who evermore
Thee confess and thee adore,
With they sevenfold gifts descend;
Give us comfort when we die;
Give us life with thee on high;
Give us joys that never end.
Amen
From the clear celestial height,
Thy pure beaming radiance give,
Come, thou Father of the poor,
Come with treasures which endure;
Come, thou light of all that live!
Thou, of all consolers’ best,
Thou, the soul’s delightful guest
Dost refreshing peace bestow;
Thou in toil art comfort sweet;
Pleasant coolness in the heat;
Solace in the midst of woe.
Light immortal, light divine,
Visit thou these hearts of thine,
And our inmost being fill,
If thou take thy grace away,
Nothing pure in man will stay;
All his good is turned to ill.
Heal our wounds, our strength renew;
On our dryness pour thy dew;
Wash the stains of guilt away
Bend the stubborn heart and will;
Melt the frozen, warm the chill;
Guide the steps that go astray,
Thou, on us who evermore
Thee confess and thee adore,
With they sevenfold gifts descend;
Give us comfort when we die;
Give us life with thee on high;
Give us joys that never end.
Amen
May 22, 2006
Vein less Heart!?
It was almost 2 am in the morning and I just got in from a hangout with friends. I washed up, tucked myself in, rolled into bed but couldn’t sleep. My mind started to think of stuffs and stuffs and stuffs… uncontrollably… it wouldn’t stop.
There was one thing I thought of that I was able to control. I got up. Then took my fleece blanket with me as I make way to our staircase to where our altar is. I lit up a big yellow candle and stared at it as its glow fill up the whole staircase area.
As I sit there and stared at Jesus’ face, I started to listen to Him. My heart was not beating as normal. I couldn’t figure out what emotion I am having. I am trying very hard to feel my heart but I couldn’t feel it. I decided to cry but tears are not falling. I was there sitting in front of Him for 15 minutes but still I was heartless. But I didn’t give up. I have great faith in Christ, so I decided to stay there and sit in front of Him. As time flies and as I continue to be in His presence, my tears start to fall and I started to feel my heart. Crying and sobbing, I asked Him for His plan for me, where I should go, what I should do, to help and heal me.
Jesus said to me, “Go, and take rest! You are following the right path. I will continue to guide you and bring you into the light. I never fail those who stand by me. I never forsake those you have faith in me. Continue to seek me and you will find me. I heal those who asked me to heal them. My child, I love you and you will be saved.”
It took me 2 hours to listen to Him and felt my heart completely.
I followed His command. I rolled into bed and in His presence I took rest.
April 19, 2006
Saving Forever For You
I've never been so sure about anything before
But this love am feeling
Gonna be a feeling I feel forever more
Looking in your eyes
Tomorrow's all I see
As long as there's forever baby
I will always be...
Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only one
I'll ever give forever to
Love for a lifetime
Won't do...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'm saving forever
For you
You'll be my world as long as
There's a world turning around
And you'll be my heaven, baby
Till the heavens all come falling down
Look inside my heart
Love is all you'll see
Loving you forever baby
Leave it just to me
Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only one
I'll ever give forever to
Love for a lifetime
Won't do...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'm saving forever
For you
Forever I'll be loving you
Long as time passes by
I'll there beside you
All through it all
I'll be standing by you
Looking in your eyes
Tomorrow's all I see
Long as there's forever, baby
I will always be...
Needing you here with me
Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only one
I'll ever give forever to
Love for a lifetime
Won't do...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'm saving forever
For you
But this love am feeling
Gonna be a feeling I feel forever more
Looking in your eyes
Tomorrow's all I see
As long as there's forever baby
I will always be...
Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only one
I'll ever give forever to
Love for a lifetime
Won't do...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'm saving forever
For you
You'll be my world as long as
There's a world turning around
And you'll be my heaven, baby
Till the heavens all come falling down
Look inside my heart
Love is all you'll see
Loving you forever baby
Leave it just to me
Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only one
I'll ever give forever to
Love for a lifetime
Won't do...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'm saving forever
For you
Forever I'll be loving you
Long as time passes by
I'll there beside you
All through it all
I'll be standing by you
Looking in your eyes
Tomorrow's all I see
Long as there's forever, baby
I will always be...
Needing you here with me
Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only one
I'll ever give forever to
Love for a lifetime
Won't do...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'm saving forever
For you
March 06, 2006
~* Miss You Sweetie...So Much as In *~
I woke up a little late today. Prayed, Got up, Freshen up and of course turned on my PC. I logged on in my YM and received a wonderful blessing from God that drew a big smile on my face. A message from my Sweetie.
"Sweetie! musta ka na po ba?!? sowee ndi me makareply promptly kse daming ginagawa eh. miss na kita! balitaan mo naman po ako! God bless!!!"
Thank God my sweetie is doing great.
I met this wonderful man over the net years ago. We had a great chemistry together. We became real life friends, shared our lives to each other and have kept in touch as often as we can. Though we are apart, I feel like he is just near, living his life alongside mine. Ironic right!? I just cannot really explain this setting. Kahit ako... nahihiwagaan.
His testimony as written below really touched me a lot.
Posted 12/09/2003 At last!!! Kritoni in my friendster!!! hehehe I met KC in the chat b4 we became real life friends. She's cool to get along with...has this sense of maturity and humor in perfect balance. She's quite a dancer at that!!! =) She's one person I'll always remember because of things she does...she's always true to her words and feelings. And she never fails to remember...that's one thing I like most on her!!! Ey!!! I love this feeling...I hope we grow old like this....take care KC!!! =)
I love the feeling as well. *SiGhS*
I have faith that one day we will meet again Sweetie. I pray that you have a happy and blessed life wherever you go. Thank you for being a great special friend to me, for keeping in touch and for treating me the same as the first time. I will always cherish you here in my heart all of my life. God bless! *muah! muah! muah!* Miss you so much!
"Sweetie! musta ka na po ba?!? sowee ndi me makareply promptly kse daming ginagawa eh. miss na kita! balitaan mo naman po ako! God bless!!!"
Thank God my sweetie is doing great.
I met this wonderful man over the net years ago. We had a great chemistry together. We became real life friends, shared our lives to each other and have kept in touch as often as we can. Though we are apart, I feel like he is just near, living his life alongside mine. Ironic right!? I just cannot really explain this setting. Kahit ako... nahihiwagaan.
His testimony as written below really touched me a lot.
Posted 12/09/2003 At last!!! Kritoni in my friendster!!! hehehe I met KC in the chat b4 we became real life friends. She's cool to get along with...has this sense of maturity and humor in perfect balance. She's quite a dancer at that!!! =) She's one person I'll always remember because of things she does...she's always true to her words and feelings. And she never fails to remember...that's one thing I like most on her!!! Ey!!! I love this feeling...I hope we grow old like this....take care KC!!! =)
I love the feeling as well. *SiGhS*
I have faith that one day we will meet again Sweetie. I pray that you have a happy and blessed life wherever you go. Thank you for being a great special friend to me, for keeping in touch and for treating me the same as the first time. I will always cherish you here in my heart all of my life. God bless! *muah! muah! muah!* Miss you so much!
March 03, 2006
=* SomeOneS sent by God *=
"God really works in mysterious ways."
Last thursday afternoon, March 2, 2006, I wrote a blog entitled - Totally Confused - And one of my entry was regarding about someone to talk to. And I actually prayed to have someone to talk to that very moment. And guess what!?! later that evening my prayer was answered. God sent me three SomeOneS to talk to. Coincidence? I don't think so.
"There are no coincidence in God's Divine Plan."
You want to know the three SomeOneS? I bet you do. Kaya nga i took pictures of us. Para ma-post ko dito. Siyempre, I was sure that this event/gathering/fellowship was worth remembering and cherishing because it was God's will.
Here's our pics. Kilala niyo sila right!?
Sis Chris, Bro. Denz and of course Bro. Jhun.
Last thursday afternoon, March 2, 2006, I wrote a blog entitled - Totally Confused - And one of my entry was regarding about someone to talk to. And I actually prayed to have someone to talk to that very moment. And guess what!?! later that evening my prayer was answered. God sent me three SomeOneS to talk to. Coincidence? I don't think so.
"There are no coincidence in God's Divine Plan."
You want to know the three SomeOneS? I bet you do. Kaya nga i took pictures of us. Para ma-post ko dito. Siyempre, I was sure that this event/gathering/fellowship was worth remembering and cherishing because it was God's will.
Here's our pics. Kilala niyo sila right!?
Sis Chris, Bro. Denz and of course Bro. Jhun.
I really can't explain my feelings about this event. It was really God sent. Alam ko in many ways that it is. Kse lahat ng gusto kong pag-usapan that afternoon... napagusapan namin. And to think the get together was not even planned by anyone of us. It was a spontaneous gathering. And the four of us are just starting to be aquainted. But on how this fellowship went through. It was a miracle. We all blended really well together. The conversation was not just mere fun but it was fruitful, inspiring, heartfelt and spiritually fulfillling.
I cannot describe in exact words what we had that
Sis. Chris, Bro. Denz and Bro. Jhun ... I thank God for answering my prayers and sending you guys to be with me that night. Thanks for your unlimited time, caring hearts, warm smiles and most especially for sharing Jesus Christ within you to me. It will live in me for the rest of my life.
God's promises are never broken.
God answers all prayers.
God answers all prayers.
And I have proven the potential of a great encounter of God's divine intervention. You can never really underestimate it.
Let Go and LET GOD!
March 02, 2006
*~ ToTaLLy CoNfUsEd ~*
A lot of things are happening. A lot of things to get my hands into. A lot of things to think about. A lot of things to feel. It's getting me totally confused.
When I am left alone. My head is filled with a lot of stuffs. I mean its thinking on its own. Alam mo yun!? ... ayaw mo ng mag-isip pero isip pa rin siya ng isip. Nakakainis nga minsan eh! Parang gusto kong utusan ang brain ko to stop processing information. As in!!? Grabee kse kung minsan. Kaya nga madalas ayaw kong maiwan mag-isa. But I can't demand other people to always stay with me right!? Kaya ito na naman... Alone... kaya itong brain ko tumatakbo na naman... processing na naman. Kaya nga ako nagsusulat ng blog ngayon. ha! ha! ha! Para may magawa itong brain ko at di masayang ang information na process niya. Pero honestly, sa dami ng information di ako alam kung ano ang isusulat ko. Kaya malamang ma-confuse kayo... kung sino man kayong nagbabasa ng blog ko. *big grins*
I want to talk to someone. Kanino kaya!? Ang weird noh!? Bakit ba ako nahihirapan humanap ng kausap? Pathetic yata ang situation ko. No one to talk to. No one appropriate. Yung mga gusto kong kausap laging di available. Kung minsan di ko alam kung gusto akong kausap. Madalas iniisip ko baka boring ako kausap. Nakakalungkot.
I pray to find someone who I can talk to about anything in this world. Exchange thoughts, feelings, time, and self with. Someone who will not get bored of me. Someone who will not get tired of me. Someone who is willing to open up to me as well. Someone I can be at ease with. Someone to dance with. Someone sent by God.
I love to dance. Dancing never dries out of my system. I just hope I can dance again for Him.
Thoughts.... Feelings... it never ends.
March 01, 2006
*~* Happiness from Within *~*
Have you ever been happy? Happiness that reflects all over your face!? Well I have! several times but last night was the recent one. *winks*
I attended a talk entitled FIRST FRUITS by Tita Nina Ponte. She was really a great speaker. I have learned a lot from her and because of these I am desiring more to become a great speaker someday for God. I felt really blessed last night as warmth fills my whole body during the offering. I can't explain why but am claiming that God blessed me through His Holy Spirit as tears of Joy fills my face and Happiness fills my heart. It is true that when you have God in your heart, you will find rest.
As Tita Nina said You can never underestimate the potential of an encounter with God, with His divine providence. Just embrace it. Accept it. Claim it. You too will feel the happiness from within.
And by the way, first fruit offering last night goes with a promise from God... that is... He will bless us. And He had blessed me last night in that instant. He gave me personal gifts. And I would love to share it the soonest.
Be ready with an open arms to accept blessing from God anytime.
May God Be Praised!
I attended a talk entitled FIRST FRUITS by Tita Nina Ponte. She was really a great speaker. I have learned a lot from her and because of these I am desiring more to become a great speaker someday for God. I felt really blessed last night as warmth fills my whole body during the offering. I can't explain why but am claiming that God blessed me through His Holy Spirit as tears of Joy fills my face and Happiness fills my heart. It is true that when you have God in your heart, you will find rest.
As Tita Nina said You can never underestimate the potential of an encounter with God, with His divine providence. Just embrace it. Accept it. Claim it. You too will feel the happiness from within.
And by the way, first fruit offering last night goes with a promise from God... that is... He will bless us. And He had blessed me last night in that instant. He gave me personal gifts. And I would love to share it the soonest.
Be ready with an open arms to accept blessing from God anytime.
May God Be Praised!
February 25, 2006
Magic of Rain
Magic of Rain It has been 2 beautiful rainy days in Dubai. Everyone seems to be in a happy mood most especially us “Pinoys” who misses the pouring rain back in the Philippines. Hay… don’t you just love the ambiance and the feeling of a rainy day!? It makes me sigh and sigh and sigh!
Hayyyyyyyyyyy! This rain never fails to bring back memories that paint a big smile all over my face…everytime. I can still remember back in our school days, we wake up early in the morning at around 4am and be out on the streets at 530am to get to school. Of course, when there is heavy rain we call the school to confirm if there’s class so we will not waste time to travel to school and just get there to know that classes are suspended. But, guess what!? We call the school then the administration will tell you that the class has not been suspended so, we travel to get to school and get through all the flood and the hassle of commuting and when we reach school, as expected, classes is has been suspended. Funny right!? Well, it always happens. But the good thing about it is that we get to go home and sleep… practically! Like a lot of people do. Sarap kseng matulog kapag umuulan eh! Malamig! Sarap may kayakap! Hayyyyy *sighs* pillow lang po ang kayakap ko.
Last Thursday, our speaker Tita Nina Ponte was reminded by the rain of God’s message. She said that rain represents God’s blessings. Same with what Tita Lou mention last night who was talking about “What it means to be a Christian?” that when “God sends rain it pours”. What a very magical and inspiring messages from our speakers. Now, I have deeper meaning of Rain. When it’s raining it will be a visual representation of God’s outpouring blessing to mankind. It will always make me feel happy, loved and cherished. I will always be reminded that God loves me and will never forsake me. It will be one of God’s sign for me that He will lead me to Him… to Salvation.
I know you have a special representation/meaning about rain. I hope and pray that you will take its spiritual meaning as well. Sana marami pang ulan sa mga dadating na araw. Para laging masaya. I feel warm when it rains because God showers love on me.
Keep on Smiling!
Magpa-ulan tayo *winks*
February 18, 2006
~*~ Busy weekend ~*~
I had a busy thursday and friday last week... hay! kakapagod po... sakit ng katawan ko and my head is spinning as of this moment. I can't hardly sleep last night actually this morning at about 2:30 am. So, I decided to turn to God and pray for about 30 mins. Ayun right after i prayed nakatulog na ako.. O diba?! talagang if you are bothered, uneasy and agitated... God is the only way to attain peace because He is peace and love. Sarap nga ng tulog ko eh kaya 11:59 am na ako nagising kaya ito sakit ng katawan sa sobrang tulog... ha ha ha
Pero yesterday was a lot of fun. Daming umatend ng fellowship namin and it was complete success. I'm happy kse we found new set of friends and lahat sila ay friendly and ang kukulit... tinalo ang kakulitan ko. I hope and pray that all of them will be able to finish SFC CLP and with that ... we will be able to keep them as our friends for life... ang saya saya!
Salamat po Lord for being with us in our fellowship. Truly with you their is always hope, peace and love.
Excited na tuloy ako next friday to see all of them. Ayan ang pic namin...
Pero yesterday was a lot of fun. Daming umatend ng fellowship namin and it was complete success. I'm happy kse we found new set of friends and lahat sila ay friendly and ang kukulit... tinalo ang kakulitan ko. I hope and pray that all of them will be able to finish SFC CLP and with that ... we will be able to keep them as our friends for life... ang saya saya!
Salamat po Lord for being with us in our fellowship. Truly with you their is always hope, peace and love.
Excited na tuloy ako next friday to see all of them. Ayan ang pic namin...
February 15, 2006
~* V-Day *~
The V-day has past! Fortunately, no date or whatsoever. Well, that's not a sad news so don't feel sorry for me coz I don't. It's like any ordinary day - nothing really that special. I even heard in the news that Vday was not like it use to be. Now it is so commercialized and over done. I wonder how was Vday celebrated long long time before... hmmm... maybe no red roses and no fancy cards.
But hey! am not a hypocrite... i still dream of having a special v-day someday... in a ... Ooops! ... not for me to tell. I think whoever my valentine would be in that special v-day should make up a really special date... that would be his great challenge. I hope it's worth the wait! I don't want to be disappointed... so i won't keep my hopes up! Although, if I'm dreaming of something... i should be dreaming high enough.. aight!? After all dreaming is the only thing we can do free of charge... hahahaha!
By the way this pic was taken during the V-day.. got nothing much to do... but love myself~ *winks*
But hey! am not a hypocrite... i still dream of having a special v-day someday... in a ... Ooops! ... not for me to tell. I think whoever my valentine would be in that special v-day should make up a really special date... that would be his great challenge. I hope it's worth the wait! I don't want to be disappointed... so i won't keep my hopes up! Although, if I'm dreaming of something... i should be dreaming high enough.. aight!? After all dreaming is the only thing we can do free of charge... hahahaha!
By the way this pic was taken during the V-day.. got nothing much to do... but love myself~ *winks*
February 14, 2006
~* Just thinkin' *~
I am praying for my heart's desire and asking for intercession from the Blessed Apostle... and i notice that he is really interceeding for me. "Linawin ko lang po... ayoko po ng joke time! hehehe!"
I used to day dream a lot back in my school days but i lost this hobby when i came here in dubai. I wondered why... "masarap pa naman mag-day dream... gawin ko nga minsan! wahooo!"
Most of the time, no matter how I try to please someone ... no matter how much I get out of my way... still... someone is not pleased. It's better to do good for the other for the sake of the act rather than for the sake of the other..."ewan ko lang kung tama yung ganito..."
I used to day dream a lot back in my school days but i lost this hobby when i came here in dubai. I wondered why... "masarap pa naman mag-day dream... gawin ko nga minsan! wahooo!"
Most of the time, no matter how I try to please someone ... no matter how much I get out of my way... still... someone is not pleased. It's better to do good for the other for the sake of the act rather than for the sake of the other..."ewan ko lang kung tama yung ganito..."
May 02, 2005
A Heart's Treat
I have been amazed with FRIENDS for years and I must say that JOEY TRIBBIANI is hilarious! He really can make me laugh! It's good that
April 04, 2005
My Great Loss...
Learning of Pope John Paul II passing away brought me into tears. He is the only Pope I grew up with. He was Blessed in October 16, 1978 as Pope and after 10 days, i was born into this world. He reigned for 26 years as i am living my life for 26 years. It was a great loss for me. I can't even discribe what i am feeling. I want to stop my tears from falling but it just won't. I was not lucky to see him in person during the world youth day in 1995 in manila but i remember seeing him in television, sudden rush of holiness embraces me as i see him waving and smiling to all the people who welcomed him in the streets of manila. I believed that God sent Pope John Paul II to Manila and to the rest of the world as His Great and Holy Messenger. And Pope John Paul II really did an unmeasurable service.
I will truly miss Him...For me He is a father, a Best Friend, a mentor, bringing me close to the HOly Father. I know He is happy now in heaven as he seats with God, Jesus, Mother Mary and all God's Holy Servants. In time, we will all reach there...eternal life.
I pray to Pope John Paul II to continually guide me and bless me to deserve to be with Him someday, to join the Holy Family up there in heaven. I will miss you Pope John Paul II and I know am not the only one.
April 03, 2005
Pic Addiks!
Since My sister AP and Cuz Thea came here in dubai, all they do is take pics of themselves.
Phew!! Addiktus pla ang mga ito sa pics...and worse..all they take is their faces...har har
har! I do get lucky sometimes...and make singit! hehehe! Kaya ayan... na-addik na rin ata ako~! Kina-reer ko na rin ang pagkuha ng pics...!~
Der's more to come..
Phew!! Addiktus pla ang mga ito sa pics...and worse..all they take is their faces...har har
har! I do get lucky sometimes...and make singit! hehehe! Kaya ayan... na-addik na rin ata ako~! Kina-reer ko na rin ang pagkuha ng pics...!~
Der's more to come..
March 21, 2005
My Fingers Aches ~
ouchies... my fingers aches... playing the guitar is really one of my passion... although its taking me years learning it... and still counting. I am learning to play new Christian songs now and its giving me a pleasant feeling...hmmm.. could this be the start...the inspiration.. for me to perfect my playing? I believe i have to make a big decision... that is to buy my own guitar...*isip isip*... good luck to me.
March 20, 2005
Who am I?
Over time You've healed so much in me,
And I am living proof
That although my darkest hour had come,
Your light could still shine through.
Though at times it's just enough to cast
A shadow on the wall,
Well, I am grateful that You shine
Your light on me at all.
Who am I.... That You would love me so gently?
Who am I.... That You would recognize my name?
Lord, who am I.... That You would speak to me so softly?
Conversation with a love most high.... Who am I?
Amazing grace how sweet the sound
That saved a retch like me
Oh, I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see.
And the more I sing that sweet old song
The more I understand
That I do not comprehend this love
That's coming from Your hand.
Grace, grace, God's grace
Grace that will pardon and cleanse within
Grace, grace, God's great grace
Grace that is greater than all my sin
Who Am I? - Point of Grace - Courtesy of Bro. Rodel ~ tenk u po!
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